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PS Sorry I am assuming everyone is familiar with Bethel YouTubes that I have gone over.  I talk about them below.  I think those that worship Bethel and those who don't should be familiar with several YouTubes as they are all over the internet.  I hate to say it but I am just as guilty or even more so than Bill on the Hill.  He is telling li*es and sending people to hell:  I have truth but failed to get it out there.  An evil lying pastor named Brock stole the money I had to get this ministry into the search engines when I was very ill.  I'm so sorry and I beg God for mercy and that he doesn't send me to hell for being a bad steward with money.

Was it forty days without food?

Was it forty stripes?

Was it preaching to people that wanted him dead?

Was it the weight of a heavy cross on a bloody back?

Was it the insulting and spitting and stripping him of all his clothes?

Was it the nails in hands and feet?

Was it the thirst on a hot day while agonizing in pain on a cruel cross?

Was it being forsaken and yet still making provision for Mary who bore him?

This site has been exhausting and difficult to say the least. I have worked it and reworked it trying my best to get it right. People are starting to visit this site that has never had visits before. Right now, I am at a crossroads in my life. My mother is very ill. While I thank the good LORD for the added time, she has had I am not sure how much longer this chapter of my life will go on. The point is I am beginning to feel the pain of a certain loss. Yes, I believe God for miracles and the miracle is I spent all the time I could for the last 12 years with my parents. If God works again, I will praise him, but if he doesn’t, I told God I would still praise him. Today I came home after several days away to my trailer and it was over 100 degrees inside. Right now, I just wanted a friend to talk to for a little while, and then it finally hit me. I felt myself holding back tears that I just don’t have friends anymore like I used to. My mom was like this glue that kept all of our family together. Now there is a strong chance that could all change. I’m getting real here now. We don’t all have the same walk with the LORD Jesus Christ. I have studied the Bible a lot and I won’t even say it. What I will say is from the moment of conception a clock starts ticking and we don’t know when the sand in the hour glass runs out. While I wanted my mom to live until the end, Jesus’ end may be further off than expected.  

(Mat 16:28) Verily I say unto you, There be some standing here, which shall not taste of death, till they see the Son of man coming in his kingdom.

It has been my ongoing prayer that both my parents would see the coming of our LORD. It is up to God. I mean it has always been up to God but now even more. While I have prayed for her it is in the LORD’s hands now.  

Since I have been a Christian, I have had a strong relationship with him, while being a horrible stumbling Christian at the same time. I wish I could have a stronger relationship with God, but the reality is I struggle a lot with sin. I preach that we should all get right with God, and I’m being real here, but I get tired of watching church after church, modern Bible after modern Bible going astray. I won’t sit around and do nothing anymore. I am getting at a point where my sites are going viral and I am starting to get one visitor a day. Many of my sites have never had visitors. As with most of my traffic people click and click away because I want to see people get real with God. I want to fill in the gap where other pastors are failing and create an online church where people can see there is more to the Christian walk than the simple “I do.” I mean a diamond ring and a vow don’t spell love, because there is a relationship on top of everything else. A marriage won’t last forever if you can’t have a friendship on top of it. How are we any different if we have a strong relationship with our families but fail in a relationship with Christ. I dared to say the words about “pew warming” in front of a church because I think a relationship is necessary with God. That went over about as good as a rock stacker on the temple mount. My words were silenced before I could get my point that Christ is returning soon. I had a strong relationship with my mother and spent all the time I could with her here on earth while I could.

(Luk 14:26) If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.

(Luk 14:27) And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.

What I am saying by the above verses is that Jesus Christ is above all other things in life. I have to put my mom in Jesus’ hands and let him handle the outcome. After all the Bible says in another place:

(Amo 4:12) Therefore thus will I do unto thee, O Israel: and because I will do this unto thee, prepare to meet thy God, O Israel.

I know what I say doesn’t appeal to everyone but it has a flavor to it whether good or bad depending on each person and their own walk with the LORD. I don’t own a church and I don’t preach in a church but these domain names and hosting bills are mine and I pay good money for them. This is my church that I built for God to use disuse or cast among the stones to wither away: While I have my own hopes this website and my other websites will grow a crop thirty-fold, sixty-fold, or one hundred-fold answers are here. For those who want a deeper walk with God I refer you to the King James Bible and Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance. I am not behind a pulpit trying to convert you to my own personal belief’s: So often what we do is centered around our own trumpet and my own tithe bag and I’m just saying Jesus expects a little more than an hour a week on Sunday. Tithing doesn’t promise wealth and I still have yet to see a man’s arm grow back where there was no arm. Now my mom has her own story and it gives way for a bigger miracle yet that could be seen from lab work and medical results. I know in my own walk God has cured many things in my own body that are miracles too. Amen prepared June 23, 2019.  

I am crying out from cyberspace trying to tell you that you have been lied to. We have a different Bible for almost every church. You can hear whatever message makes you most happy but the truth is all roads don’t lead to Jesus and the only path to the Father is through Jesus. There is a way that everyone seems to be choosing but it is the broad way to destruction. It seems every time I write a sermon my words go on deaf ears. No one wants the truth in which the true Bible the King James Bible teaches. Fans that just read the King James 1611 know that today I opened that Bible too. I work hard and give a lot. In the last two days I wrote four songs but I realize I can’t sell them because I preach the Bible’s truths. No one wants the truth when an easy solution lights everyone’s paths. The more I read the Bible the more convicted I am that not all roads lead to paradise. There is a price to pay after we die. God gives you every chance there is because we serve a fair God but like it or not and I’m not going to quote the Bible right now but there are consequences to sin. Even in my sins I know I am failing. I see heaven in the Bible but I am missing the mark. I have been both a bad steward of time and money. Now it is in Bible reading because I don’t read it enough.  

I have dishonored God because the life I am living. I know what the Bible says and now I fear losing my soul. I can’t seem to change my life for better. At times the only way I feel I can get right with God is through repentance but at some point, you can’t keep repenting because it is just too late.

(Heb 6:4) For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost,

(Heb 6:5) And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,

(Heb 6:6) If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

I am running out of time with God. I don’t know when the end is but I am so tired of working so hard and getting nowhere. My life is falling apart and I need a break but I want to keep working for God because it is all I know to do. I don’t have a job because of my disability. Instead of wasting mindless hours in front of a TV or video game I spend that time with Jesus instead. Some days I think I am sinning because all I am doing is meditating on the Bible and talking with God.  

​I need to get right with God. I am not having a works-based relationship but rather:

(Php 2:12) Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.

The more I read I think that perhaps when the three Hebrew boys were in the fire with Jesus, I think the rest of the folks that were worshiping the idol with the music missed heaven. It is a real choice. Our choices are made in this life and once we die there are no other choices and no other chances. Next month I have a bill to pay and I don’t have the money for the tithe. I thought maybe the tithe is not for a real cause, but then if it is I could go to hell for not paying it.  

(Jas 2:10) For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all.

What I said in a church a few months ago did not go over well. I was saying that works are important and there is more to the Christian walk than warming pews an hour a week. They hate me now.  

I know we reap what we sow and:

(2Co 9:6) But this I say, He which soweth sparingly shall reap also sparingly; and he which soweth bountifully shall reap also bountifully.

Just because you work 9 to 5 pm five days a week doesn’t mean there isn’t a bit of time to read the Bible. We find time for meaningless television. We could listen to the Bible on our way to work. I like Christian music too but I don’t listen to it much because I want to spend time with the LORD. We spend time reading the credit card terms of service but really if you want it you have to agree anyhow or don’t get it. The Bible sits on the bottom shelf growing dust. Even if you do read it are you actually getting anything out of it. You will hate me for this but I really don’t care at this point. Are you reading the King James and not a New King James or any other modern Bible? I don’t read about consequences in modern Bibles. Many times, hell has been washed clean from all the verses or many of the verses. When Jesus said gouge out your eye if it offends. God stopped me when I pressed a pen against my eyeball and I had to be stopped twice. Yes, I drank deadly poison because the Devil tried me. Yes, I have been mentally ill and I don’t do this stuff anymore.  ​I don’t recommend it either because God usually doesn’t ask this of you. Usually it is the Devil trying to destroy a person. I mean when I drank the deadly thing, I watched these crazy Christians holding rattlesnakes and drinking cyanide. I chose bleach and cleaner the second time because I was in prison and I was lucky enough to get that. God only asked Abraham to sacrifice his son and when he did the angel had to stop him. He was obedient and that was what counted. I knew in prison there is no way out, and I wasn’t trying to commit suicide. Don’t do what I did because you might not survive. If God asked you to do a kind deed do it. If God wants you to read this site read it and put it in place of TV. There is a lot of good reading I have on these sites. It is a gift to the God I serve and a labor of love. God isn’t asking everyone to do what I do, and don’t do it either because it is crazy. Our God does however, ask more than going to church an hour a week. I have only asked for money a few times on this site. I’m not asking but if God puts it on your heart he will show you the tabs to click to donate. As of this date June 19, 2019, only a handful of people have ever donated. I used to stop people from giving but I read in the Bible and I can’t remember where now but it counts to that person’s blessing. I don’t preach an easy message because God’s Bible doesn’t either. The NIV preaches the easy road, and the Jehovah’s Witnesses who simply believe Jesus is just a friendly guy haven’t read the Hebrew from the Old Testament. To the Adventists they don’t realize EG White is not listed in Hebrews chapter one as a last days prophet.  

(Heb 1:1) God, who at sundry times and in divers manners spake in time past unto the fathers by the prophets,

(Heb 1:2) Hath in these last days spoken unto us by his Son, whom he hath appointed heir of all things, by whom also he made the worlds;

I am sorry but her name isn’t mentioned in either of the above verses.  

In the end of life there are a lot of things you are persuaded to believe but if you aren’t reading the King James Bible and Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance you are missing the entire picture. Yes, it has thee’s and thou’s and other hard words but so do modern Bibles when they make poor word choices. I am telling you a life of church warming the pews an hour a week probably won’t lead you to hell but it will lead to eternal death. There are ways to go and not all of them are a good choice. You tell me that an 82 year old woman that goes to places white man has never gone deep into Kenya will receive the same reward; as someone who sings for an hour a week and receives a short sermon about how much God loves you will reap the same reward. Heaven’s no!!! Something is wrong with that picture. Once again God may not ask you to go deep into a jungle to find a bunch of cannibals to preach to them about Jesus. He may however, ask you to share the message of Jesus love in your own neighborhood. As for me and this is a problem with me. I gave up evangelizing. I was so hurt by people that rejected Jesus and speak hate to me just because I mentioned God.  

Even here now I have a hard time. I silently preach to people that click and click away and never read a word past the introduction. Still I know one day God will use these sites in a very big way. Life is all about choices and when I read about the lowest hell, I realize my actions almost put me there.

(Deu 32:22) For a fire is kindled in mine anger, and shall burn unto the lowest hell, and shall consume the earth with her increase, and set on fire the foundations of the mountains.

(Psa 86:13) For great is thy mercy toward me: and thou hast delivered my soul from the lowest hell.

I am saved by grace not because I called on his name but when I called on Jesus name, I took it seriously and didn’t sit on the sidelines. I play an active role as a Christian. Yes I agree and any neighbor of mine will agree I am a worthless Christian because I deal with some real anger. Still the part that is a US Marine isn’t done playing Marine any time soon. Too many people remind me I am still a Marine even thirty years later. It is the part of my Christianity that keeps me from suicide and from giving up. I admit revenge to my enemies after Jesus' throne rather than a strong love or forgiveness is what pushes me to the end where Jesus will return. That is the part of me that doesn’t care and hates the evil that wicked people do. King David isn’t mentioned loving on Goliath instead he hurled a smooth stone and cut the giant’s head off with his own sword. I don’t always play so nice either. The line of people that want to fight me and hate me is long. I chose other tactics rather than a second strike than fighting a fight that would land me back in prison. God’s love may be stepping to the side of a bully that looks for a fight wherever he can. Names do hurt but the reality is there are a lot of bad people on earth and in the end their poor choices land a lot of souls in hell for eternity which by the way burns forever and ever and never dies down. God doesn’t have to keep stoking the fire instead God has a flame that.  

(Isa 66:24) And they shall go forth, and look upon the carcases of the men that have transgressed against me: for their worm shall not die, neither shall their fire be quenched; and they shall be an abhorring unto all flesh.

Our worship of the LORD is not wooing and wowing over our pastors.  Klove and Air1 would love you to think that by listening to music is all the worship you need for God.  There are so many more weightier matters that God wants.  Yes it is good to listen to Christian music but not the type, and here I am guilty too, of music that is written by singers into the Illuminati or those sold out to Satan.  It is more common than you think.  People that we think are so wonderful, unknown to us, sold their souls over to Satan.  I won't say who because it is really not good to church bash but a certain pastor was saying its "It's not the Father the Son and the Holy Bible..."  Why didn't anyone rebuke him because Jesus is the "logos" Greek for Word.  People aren't reading their Bibles so they take all this garbage in never even thinking to question it.  Question me, I mean you really should; but don't do it with a modern Bible use the Strong's Exhaustive Concordance, not Strongest Strong's:  Use the King James and older Bibles.  It is the Word and let me define this below:

(Joh 1:1) InG1722 the beginningG746 wasG2258 theG3588 Word,G3056 andG2532 theG3588 WordG3056 wasG2258 withG4314 God,G2316 andG2532 theG3588 WordG3056 wasG2258 God.G2316

(Joh 1:1) In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Look up the word "Word" as G3056.  I will do it for you below.

From G3004; something said (including the thought); by implication a topic (subject of discourse), also reasoning (the mental faculty) or motive; by extension a computation; specifically (with the article in John) the Divine Expression (that is, Christ): - account, cause, communication, X concerning, doctrine, fame, X have to do, intent, matter, mouth, preaching, question, reason, + reckon, remove, say (-ing), shew, X speaker, speech, talk, thing, + none of these things move me, tidings, treatise, utterance, word, work.

It is the Word too.  In fact Jesus is the logos and the Father is the Father and then there is the Holy Spirit.  The Bible is precious and to refute what it is saying is heresy.  In fact when you research the word "word" in Daniel 12:4 and verse 9 in the Greek Septuagint you will find that word is actually "logos" the same use of the Word in John 1:1.  Yes I too have studied the Bible.  With my learning disability thanks to a couple of folks that cast spells on me I have mental illness and I have had to learn a lot of things over again.  Still I probably know more about the Bible than that the foolish pastor on the hill.  I can't memorize hardly a thing in the Bible anymore so I am stuck with reading verses hundreds and even thousands of times.  With that I know more about the ancient Bible's use of punctuation, capitalization, (Especially between the KJV and KJV 1611 and the 1560 Geneva Bible.) and the use of italicized words.  Let us look at the verses from Daniel 12:4,9.  This is one of the chapters translated from Hebrew while other chapters are from Aramaic:  But to get to the word "logos" you have to go back to the Greek Septuagint.  It won't do any good but you will just have to learn Greek or have an interlinear Greek King James Bible.  I have resources of my own so I don't have to learn Greek I just go by the Strong's numbering.  

(Dan 12:4) But thou, O Daniel, shut up the words, and seal the book, even to the time of the end: many shall run to and fro, and knowledge shall be increased.

(Dan 12:9) And he said, Go thy way, Daniel: for the words are closed up and sealed till the time of the end.

We are at a turning point in the Bible and it is very serious.  Instead of clicking and clicking away you might want to read this.  

We are at the end of days.  It could only be a few weeks before the LORD Jesus Christ returns.  I have carefully examined Daniel 12:5-7 where Jesus is walking on top of a river and he swears to the Father that the time is a "time times (two times in the 1560 Geneva Bible) and a half time.  The only way to properly deduce this mathematical equation is by counting "moeds."  I know that is not a term you are used to but it is the Hebrew word for feast days.  A feast day is a day, as an example Passover, or Rosh Hashana, or Yom Kippor.  In this formula you are counting approximately 3.5 years worth of moeds.  The verse begs an answer?  Can we add it to anything?  Yes we can we can add it to the Tetrad of 2014-2015 which was a period of two years where Passover and Sukkot all fell on blood moons.  I thought that was the end.  I was wrong I have also thought many dates were wrong still I wonder when.  Habakkuk too was wrong and the LORD reproved him as he is doing me.  

(Hab 2:1) I will stand upon my watch, and set me upon the tower, and will watch to see what he will say unto me, and what I shall answer when I am reproved.

Right now I don't know any other dates.  Something happened to Daniel on the 24th of Nisan which is pointed out in Daniel 10.  Today is the 24th of Nisan.  Could these words become unsealed today I don't know.  Could the real glory cloud of the Bible fall in the house of God today I don't know and I really don't care.  Whatever happens, happens and if God unseals the words of my websites today I will be very happy.  If I get donations that's fine but truly I can still live without them.  

So truthfully Daniel 12:7 ended on the Passover of 2019 which I thought would be the end.  The last part of this verse is as follows:


​(Dan 12:7) And I heard the man clothed in linen, which was upon the waters of the river, when he held up his right hand and his left hand unto heaven, and sware by him that liveth for ever that it shall be for a time, times, and an half; and when he shall have accomplished to scatter the power of the holy people, all these things shall be finished.

Note the semi-colon which doesn't tell us much.  The KJV is a beginner Bible unlike older Bibles.  Capitalization a lot of times has been brought down to lower cases.  A lot of things are hidden in the KJV which is why you have to go to older Bibles.  The semi-colon presents us with a continuation of the verse as it were all one.  This would mean it all happens together.  

1587 Geneva

(Dan 12:7) And I heard ye man clothed in line which was vpon the waters of the riuer, when he helde vp his right hand, & his left hand vnto heauen, & sware by him that liueth for euer, that it shall tarie for a time, two times & an halfe: & when he shal haue accomplished to scatter the power of the holy people, all these things shall be finished.

Note the colon which means there is a delay or end.

1388 Wycliffe

7 And Y herde the man, that was clothid in lynnun clothis, that stood on the watris of the flood, whanne he hadde reisid his
riythond and lefthond to heuene, and hadde sworun by hym that lyueth with outen ende, For in to a tyme, and tymes, and
the half of tyme. And whanne the scateryng of the hoond of the hooli puple is fillid, alle these thingis schulen be fillid.

Note the period which means there is a delay or an end. 

Here is a little Bible trivia.  Unicorns are real and live today.  They are hiding in Latin.

So God wasn't lying. Here is a unicorn in plain sight. It is a rhino in Latin.  

17 Quasi primogeniti tauri pulchritudo ejus,
cornua rhinocerotis cornua illius :
in ipsis ventilabit gentes usque ad terminos
Hæ sunt multitudines Ephraim :
et hæc millia Manasse.

(Deu 33:17) His glory is like the firstling of his bullock, and his horns are like the horns of unicorns: with them he shall push the people together to the ends of the earth: and they are the ten thousands of Ephraim, and they are the thousands of Manasseh.

More rambling is below if you really want to hear it.  

Think about this you wicked lying prosperity preachers who want nothing more but the easiest gold paved road to your own Kingdom where you can claim to be God on earth or whatever you are seeking.  I am a wicked sinner and I apologize but the God of Heaven and Earth loves and forgives if I keep his commands.  But you wanted it all foolish pastors.  You wanted the money the fame and to be treated as God yourself.  A day is soon coming when this will be no more.  Days are coming where there will be no light.  Your horns and altars will be thrown down and a real glory cloud will keep you from entering your own precious house of GOD so you can't lie anymore.  The days are numbered for the wicked actions and for the true Gospel of the LORD Jesus Christ to be preached in power.  

Why have I never seen a prosperity preacher heal a veteran that lost a limb to have his limb grow back in front of an entire congregation?

I'm not sorry but I am mad for lying churches in which almost everyone is guilty of.  What about your New King James Versions, NIV's, New World Abomination, NLT, NASB.  Why was I insulted and mocked for carrying my 1560 Geneva Bible to church?  Can I not say EG White is a false prophet and in hell as we speak?!  

(Heb 1:1) God, who at sundry times and in divers manners spake in time past unto the fathers by the prophets,
(Heb 1:2) Hath in these last days spoken unto us by his Son, whom he hath appointed heir of all things, by whom also he made the worlds;

Does it say God spoke to us by EG White no it doesn't.   It says his Son.  If I was a real jerk I could put in the words EG White in Hebrews 1:2 and every one would believe me.  If I dare preach from ancient Bibles everyone counts me off as a retard which yes I became in my mental illness.  Boy do I ever qualify as a Bible teacher.  The Jehovah's Witnesses put the letter "a" in John 1:1 and everyone believes it and will all lose their salvation because to them Jesus is a nice guy and not God Almighty.  No he's not the Father and I'm not confused about (1Jn 5:7) For there are three that bear record in heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost: and these three are one.  This verse doesn't agree with Old Testament El and Elohim.  Therefore with a little YouTube research you will find I John 5:7 was added by fools roasting and crying out in hell "just one little drop of water" at the council of Nicea in 325 AD.  

Ask any good Christian book store if they still sell the King James Bible and if not why?!  Because it speaks the truth and that goes against their agenda.  

We need to get real with GOD and not delay!  That includes myself which I am having a very hard time with and it all stems around my anger with modern churches and modern Bibles.  

​I AM A WICKED SINNER AND I APOLOGIZE FOR MY ACTIONS!  When I was in prison I used to look at car magazines thinking of cars and trucks and even 4x4's I wanted to own.  I thought to myself it put me into a happy place which I needed to survive that horrible place.  But the truth of the matter is I have acted covetously.  I recall a letter to the last girlfriend I ever had over 21 years ago.  I said something to the effect I could make so much money I am almost laughing referring to the church.  I WAS SO WICKED BECAUSE I THOUGHT I COULD BUY HER LOVE BACK WITH MONEY.  The Bible tells us something else about love.  (Son 8:7) Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.  I was so evil and even one day when I was having a terrible day and hated myself I cursed God at the gas station and another woman heard me.  Later I got home and felt horrible.  I felt like standing on a street corner and repenting to God while holding a sign.  I am not here to build myself up or put me on a pedestal.  I have thought to myself many wicked things like rebuilding my 1995 Geo Metro or fixing the air conditioner in the very luxurious 2000 Mercury Mountaineer I drive today.  It is running almost perfect despite a very noisy engine at over 300,000 miles.  I thought of doing even worse by trying to fix the check engine light and even the ABS light which are on all the time now.  I even think of things I shouldn't think of like new tires.  Some days I think of such covetous thoughts of wanting another computer for the ministries.  I get tired of fixing all the leaks in the very luxurious 31 foot triple slide out travel trailer.  I sometimes think if my books weren't written so bad because I speak of my insanity and prison and wicked self I might be able to sell them to people though I have put all of them up for free.  People have told me I need to make money and when I put them online in pdf no one but one person has ever read one of them.  Maybe two or three people perhaps more but that was strange because I am termed boring.  I give money away well it really doesn't matter because I should do more.  I am actually thinking it would be nice to continue to live in a trailer park but just in a new trailer.  I love this trailer but I can't fix the leaks for long until a new leak starts.  It might be moldy but I can live with that.  Strange thoughts from the Devil came to my mind.  I had to repent.  I told God if I could just make a massive sum of money like $25,000.00 a year as my heavenly wage it would make life wonderful.  I had even more wicked thoughts because I asked the LORD for a wife.  Not in this lifetime because I need the time with GOD.  I have thought of other things like even having a church.  I think that is being too greedy.  I thought if I had a 38-40 foot five slide out trailer I could have company at times and I could run ministries from and even God willing start a youtube channel.  God has been showing me all kinds of things in reality and in dreams but I don't deserve the good he has for me.  I am worthy of hell.  I don't want to go to hell but maybe God could just blot me out for my wickedness.  I am not a pastor because I think this way.  I think to myself Jesus' blood isn't cheap.  I don't need gold nor a worthless Mercedes.  I sure would like to show up in church in my Geo Metro.  I feel like I am too rich for driving a 2000 Mercury Mountaineer with 300,000+ miles on it.  It is a very nice vehicle and I don't want people to get the wrong impression that I am too rich.  I think we have to be real with God and instead of the Greek word ego which means "I" we have to put Jesus first.  I thought of being a slave for Jesus.  I could clean the church even toilets.  Perhaps McDonald's as a cashier/janitor.  I thought an author but I know my books are terrible.  I haven't fixed them and to be honest I can't even afford them so I can't fix the colors and text.  Also I haven't updated "Love."  I thought perhaps if they were good which they aren't because I preach the truth according to the Bible and not some garbage that comes from prosperity preaching.  I need to make myself low and not be so full of pride or wanting certain riches.  I've read the Bible, ancient Bibles, but not enough.  Today I only read a few chapters and did some other work.  I will probably be one saying Lord Lord I only read the Bible and not the Apocrypha or book of Enoch.  I didn't read Enoch or the Apocrypha from cover to cover but only a little here and there.  I only read certain chapters and verses hundreds of times perhaps some areas nearing a thousand times but no where near enough to call myself a Christian.  I haven't done your works and I wasted both time and money.  I got angry and I can't even forgive a pastor that stole upwards of $40,000.00 from me which I am still reaping his bad fruit 12 years later.  I should go to hell for this at least that is what everyone says to me.  Sometimes I think lustful thoughts though I have abstained for 21 years.  I never did a drug other than my prescribed medications.  I stopped alcohol 21 years ago.  I never did a cigarette or any tobacco though I admit I held a burning cigarette for a Woman Marine in the Corps while she worked.  I've done other wicked things I fear to speak of here.  I am not a good person though I just ask for a trailer and the Geo Metro fixed oh LORD.  If you can fix the leaks in this trailer I will be more than happy even with the massive amount of money I make of 1127.00 a month just without having to give the tithes anymore.  I will stop bugging you for anything else oh LORD as I know I am not worthy oh LORD because my sins.  LORD I know in heaven I won't have the same expenses and this is what I ask from you when I get to heaven as long as my destination isn't hell.  Amen


Dale Lee Gordon

(Pro 30:7) Two things have I required of thee; deny me them not before I die:

(Pro 30:8) Remove far from me vanity and lies: give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with food convenient for me:

(Pro 30:9) Lest I be full, and deny thee, and say, Who is the LORD? or lest I be poor, and steal, and take the name of my God in vain.

(2Jn 1:8) Look to yourselves, that we lose not those things which we have wrought, but that we receive a full reward.

Yes you can get to heaven and lose your reward.  The Bible says a lot but that means you actually have to read it.  One more thing if you are thinking about donating which I have received about $200.00 in personal tithes in 12 years I can't be bought.  I don't want a home rich cars planes yachts or whatever else.  

Now days if you tell the truth about the Bible and try to write a godly website you'll get no where in life.  Money fame and power must be number one in your life.  I want Jesus alone and my Bibles because I value all my Bibles.  I think I am a disgrace to God's Kingdom because I have handled myself poorly when I should not have.  I have thought of other rich things in heaven and I even asked God for them when his Kingdom comes.  I am embarrassed of the rich life I asked of God when I get to heaven.  I am sorry oh GOD.  What I needed to do oh Jesus is realize the cost of your blood and put my love toward you first instead of WORTHLESS TREASURES!  Thank you oh GOD that I do not hear from the voices of devils in my head anymore.  Those are familiar spirits and they carry doctrines of devils.  The voices I do get God please help along with my medications to silence for ever.  Jesus maybe one day you can give me my full mind back though things have been getting clearer and I thank you for it.  I am sorry that I have allowed voices to sway my life in the past and I have even preached or used those voices to speak out of them in authority.  I am sorry!  Also I want to apologize for my misbehavior in a church here in Redding; The Stirring.  It was a rock concert church.  Enough said on that.  No its not enough said.  I'm going to whine and complain and have a temper tantrum.  Okay Okay so I looked up "worship" and "song" in the King James.  It was no where to be found.  So I looked up "worship" and "music" in the same verse in the King James Version of the Bible.  I got Daniel 3.  

(Dan 3:5) That at what time ye hear the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, dulcimer, and all kinds of musick, ye fall down and worship the golden image that Nebuchadnezzar the king hath set up:

(Dan 3:10) Thou, O king, hast made a decree, that every man that shall hear the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, and dulcimer, and all kinds of musick, shall fall down and worship the golden image:

(Dan 3:15) Now if ye be ready that at what time ye hear the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, and dulcimer, and all kinds of musick, ye fall down and worship the image which I have made; well: but if ye worship not, ye shall be cast the same hour into the midst of a burning fiery furnace; and who is that God that shall deliver you out of my hands?

So the guys worshiping music might have went to hell and death and the three dudes that got right with God and remained standing danced a jig in the blazing fire with Jesus.  Klove and Air1 which I hate but is a necessary evil tell us you are worshiping God just by listening to music and all the other toxic garbage the DJ's talk about.  Does this mean if I just listen to Air1 and Klove I will go to heaven and be with Jesus???  Maybe if I send 40 bucks a month so the DJ's can have Starbucks and fancy bluetooth headphones and nice cars I too will go to heaven.  WOW!!!  I like music too.  Truth be known I like a lot of trashy music too but I don't listen to it because I will go to hell.  Okay Okay so here's the problem.  A lot of your so called "Christian" musicians have sold their souls to Satan just to get published.  You can tell I didn't sell out because my sites look like trash and I haven't taken Bill on the Hill's class to be a real Christian.  I know I am classless because I insult people that absolutely deserve it.  No really I am comparing life with the King James Bible and I see the truth.  If you look or hear about my folly you'd hate me too but it is 101 am and I'm burning the midnight oil.  Maybe God will just forgive me for exposing what is wrong in Christianity today.  Don't look at me I'm all wrong.  My life is a mess and I still don't know if I am going to heaven or hell.  

(1Pe 4:18) And if the righteous scarcely be saved, where shall the ungodly and the sinner appear?

(Php 2:12) Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.

(1Pe 4:17) For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God?

(Mat 7:13) Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:

(Mat 7:14) Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

Yes listen to Christian music but listen to my music too.  I'm beginning to write my own music because I hate Klove and Air1 but it won't sell because I get preachy in my songs and like everything else I do I am very long winded.  Not all Christian music is good.  Bethel music is bad and so is Hillsong because they are abusing the Gospel of our Dear LORD for money power and fame.  I'm sorry but if the music is coming at you at 110 decibels there is something wrong.  I promote a song by Phil Collins on because I want people to hear it on judgment day.  I know I know that is so wrong and goes against everything I say.  Sorry I like a little Scorpions and Metallica too but I won't listen to it unless God cleanses the demons from them after this world is all said and done.  My God has actually entertained me with some pretty silly stuff which was not kosher.  I am a little rough around the edges and have yet to bury the US Marine in me which principles have kept me alive in a long and very drawn out Christian walk.  I even eaten pork and I have purchased pork on my pizza even on the Sabbath Day.  I am a sinner and I admit it.  I look at weightier matters like finishing this website on the 5th of Sivan as I prepare this site for Pentecost on Monday 2019.  I take God seriously in the important matters.  Yes I even went to lunch on Sabbath but tried to hold worship on the new moon which was last Wednesday since that was when the true Sabbath was.  Don't worry though EG White fixed your little feast days too by changing them but curse the sinning popes for changing the Sabbath to Sunday.  I don't think EG White ever owned a vanity mirror.  Don't worry I hate the Pope too.  He ain't my Father and I don't need him or Mary to get to Jesus.  This is what happens when you're half crazy and you work late at night.  I'm supposed to be going to church tomorrow but I haven't even taken my happy pills to sleep.  I need to work or lose my salvation.  

I speak with a lot of words, I know.  I have a lot to say.  God has been blessing me lately, but I need to apologize for my misbehavior.  I have lied and I have done so much wrong.  Before the LORD I see myself as such a sinful man.  I don't know why I deserve any grace at all.  I haven't done anything good.  All I have done during my Christian walk is blamed God for all the bad things and complained.  I have a RV trailer that doesn't leak too bad and I am not sensitive to the mold I breathe each day.  I have a car that looks brand new with a tad over 300,000 miles and it runs great.  I have clothes that still fit and I am over weight and have food at all times.  Also I have most of my teeth and most of my hair.  God has blessed me with health and he has forgiven me of my sins.  Here I am I complain when I make 1127.00 a month.  The other day a drunk gave me $20 and told me through the Holy Spirit that Jesus was proud of me.  I talked to God tonight, a one way conversation with no familiar spirit thank God:  I said to him why have you blessed me?  I don't do anything.  Why are you proud of me Jesus?  Tonight I met a woman who is 82 and goes to Kenya to evangelize.  She hasn't attended Bethel to take a class on healing or how to evangelize.  Instead she uses her money to bring these people who have never seen a white person to the LORD Jesus Christ.  I am sorry but there is what 7 billion of us on earth and one person does what she does.  That is sad.  Instead perhaps we spend several thousand on sound tuning and lights and speakers instead of where it is really at and that is deep into the jungle with lions and tigers.  I am sorry but Pastor Darrel, or Bill on the Hill, I don't think God sees your ministry in the same light.  I think God is not so impressed with fool's gold "glory clouds" but he might look at this 82 year old lady differently.  

I don't know if time will go on but this lady asked me about a website and if time goes on I plan to do it all for free.  I can't charger her because that would be slapping my God in the face.  I was going to look into song writing but I have to trust God in my finances instead.  I have to pay for a smog check for the car next year and I have a check engine light on.  I don't care because I trust God.  I have plenty of money with what I make.  

Right now I feel so guilty in the light and sitting there talking to a woman that is famous in God's eyes.  She is 82 and she has yielded her entire life to serving Jesus Christ.  When was the last time Bill on the Hill went deep into the Congo on the back of a motor scooter?  Did he fly 1st class or in a personal jet like Benny Hinn?  I don't know.  I haven't even done prison ministries which God has called me to do through two people.  I felt guilty in the presence of this woman in that I have accomplished absolutely nothing.  All I do is cause division because I dare speak of verses like the following when I am supposed to be preaching "grace grace grace!!!"  (2Th 2:17) Comfort your hearts, and stablish you in every good word and work.  (Tit 3:8) This is a faithful saying, and these things I will that thou affirm constantly, that they which have believed in God might be careful to maintain good works. These things are good and profitable unto men.  These words are actually in the Bible but if I dare say works are important in one of these hyper-grace powered churches I am silenced.  I speak it as it is here because I bought my domains and I pay for my hosting.  It looks like trash and it is totally disorganized like this house but you know what I am free to preach the Bible in my own muddy cistern down here in my own corner of cyber-space.  I know no one will here me down here.  I have talked to the pros and they tell you, you will lose everyone's attention if you make long pages.  I really don't care because this needs to be read!  Bill on the Hill can get away with his "feathers" from Psalm 91.  (Psa 91:4) He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.  I really don't think God was talking about this but then I don't carry on two way conversations with familiar spirits anymore.  So when Bill on the Hill walks into his classroom we worship him right!?  I had a serious moment tonight meeting this 82 year old.  I looked in the mirror and I saw a man that should have at least done prison ministries and I failed God.  I didn't bury my five talents.  I did worse.  I gave them to a false lying prosperity pastor named Brock.  I failed God and I deserve hell.  What I did 21 years ago God gave me a second chance but all I have done is create websites I whine and complain on and don't do anything to rectify what I have done wrong.  I am blessed.  I eat three times a day at least every day.  Most of the time I drive a car that has almost a full tank of fuel.  I live in a heated and air conditioned trailer and I "have the right" to complain?!  I am nothing but a worm.  (Job 25:6) How much less man, that is a worm? and the son of man, which is a worm?  I am worse than a piece of dirt in the eyes of a Holy God.  I have even dared raise a hand at the Holiness of God and tell him he isn't doing his job right!?  I have too.  

(Isa 55:8) For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD.

(Isa 55:9) For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

(Isa 55:10) For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:

(Isa 55:11) So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.

Sometimes I dare even think that I am correct because I dare read the King James Bible and other ancient Bibles.  Who am I to dare Derrek and Darrel that it is "Christ Plus!?"  I don't even have my own church so I can have "sound tuning" and my own tithe bag.  I don't want it because its just like these sites that I am finally getting visitors to after 12 years people don't want to hear the truth.  I thought of being a pastor of one church and would have pursued it but God was not happy with me and my car broke down a day before so I couldn't make it to the meeting.  I think God wants me right here where I am.  

(Joh 8:45) And because I tell you the truth, ye believe me not.

(Gal 4:16) Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth?

To quote a popular Tom Cruize movie, "you can't handle the truth!!!"  

​(Zec 8:12) For the seed shall be prosperous; the vine shall give her fruit, and the ground shall give her increase, and the heavens shall give their dew; and I will cause the remnant of this people to possess all these things.

​Just so you know not everyone inherits God's Kingdom.  It is actually a narrow road.  I am sorry to the woman at the bridge God doesn't love everyone.  I listened very carefully to the man with the Bible that everyone rebuked.  

(Mat 20:16) So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.

​(Mal 1:2) I have loved you, saith the LORD. Yet ye say, Wherein hast thou loved us? Was not Esau Jacob's brother? saith the LORD: yet I loved Jacob,

(Mal 1:3) And I hated Esau, and laid his mountains and his heritage waste for the dragons of the wilderness.

​(Jer 15:1) Then said the LORD unto me, Though Moses and Samuel stood before me, yet my mind could not be toward this people: cast them out of my sight, and let them go forth.

Bill on the Hill never translated this part Old Testament of the Bible.  Even in the New Testament is Jesus "not" the LOGOS or the Word.  The Word doesn't matter to Bill on the Hill but it matters to me.  

​(Joh 1:1) In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Maybe I should have listened to Bill on the Hill and took his classes so I too could get another demon in addition to the ones that already possess me and I need lots of medications for.  My demons I fight were the results of bad living, demonic movies, and two people that cast spells on me.  Maybe that will give you reason to not listen to me.  Yes I read the Bible for 21 years and now that because of a lot of seizures with insanity I forgot the entire thing and have to learn the Bible all over again.  Maybe I could have received one of those crowns too so I could have a demon like the one young man got.  NO THANK YOU!  I won't receive a crown of gold but if I do Jesus can give me one and not some foolish "pastor" who this time wasn't Bill on the Hill.  I am sorry but I am not blessed with the power to drive out demons, and if your arm is missing I can't grow you a new one.  I can't give you a Mercedes, or produce a second gold rush which I am sorry but that may be why your house burned down.  Because after the dust and ash settles and so and so bought your land...  I won't tell you the rest because it would make you mad.  I think there are a lot of politics to when and where a house burns down.  People know where the gold is, its in the giant's of old feet.  

You know what this will make a lot of people angry but stop trying to heal others through witchcraft and demonic possession.  I've witnessed a lot of "healings" and most of the time they are gone by the next day.  I WANT TO SEE AN ARM GROW BACK OR AN EYE BEING PLACED BACK IN THE SOCKET AND VISION RESTORED!!!  I never did this in church nor with a $12,000 class but God healed pinched nerves, severe insanity through medications and prayers, Parkinson's which is on the way next, severe insanity, a clean credit record, and a sinner delivered from hell.  God did this all in my own body and no laying on hands or prayers from Bethel Church.  I didn't even always pray, but God healed me anyways.  That is how God works.  He works in a house with black mold that leaks, and not in a church with sound tuning and an expensive audio visual system.  I glorify God in my own home for all his miracles and instead of taking a class I provided 18 orphans a home and food and that is not to brag.  If I brag at all I am bragging that God saved a sinner.  Bill on the Hill isn't going to be homeless next month because he lacks money.  I could be but the God I serve will see that my gas engine that sounds like a diesel will hold together and so will my life.  I may not be able to afford a case of beer, a loto ticket, or a pack of smokes which I never did any of them.  Ok okay I abused alcohol 22 years ago and I have regained a secondary virginity going on 22 years.  Still that doesn't make me righteous or saved or does it guarantee that God loves me too like the woman at the bridge said.  God doesn't have to love me or like me.  God doesn't tell me what verse to read.  God isn't even obligated to give me grace at my command because I say I love God.  Instead I received some harsh words of reality from God.  I received only a small handful of words from God in my life.  Three were "we press on!"  God I hated him for that because I didn't want to hear it.  As I would tell God in my head, "I love you," and I heard the response "if you love me keep my commandments."  I feared telling him I ever loved him again because I knew from then on Salvation Comes With a Price!  Amen!!!  About that price.  One person a woman 82 years old goes deep into Kenya where they have never seen a white person.  I think that is because in all Bethel's money and works no one from that church made it out that far.  7.66 billion (2018) world's population.  One person out of that many people?!  She has very few sponsors.  I have zero sponsors.  I wanted to do prison ministries but I can't even afford enough gas to get out of the closest prison.  I am sorry it takes money to do things.  These websites cost 80+ a month and the cost will increase.  I pay for my sites myself and my only complaint is no one ever reads them.  MAYBE THAT IS BECAUSE I DON'T TELL YOU JUST HOW SAVED YOU ARE AND GIVE GLORY TO BILL ON THE HILL, OR TO KENNETH AND GLORIA COPELAND!  SORRY BUT YOU MIGHT ACTUALLY LEARN SOMETHING HERE BECAUSE I TOO HAVE READ THE BIBLE COVER TO COVER AND MORE THAN ONCE.  Sorry that is because I tell you the truth out of the true Bible the King James.  As far as King James 1611 fans I read that Bible too along with the 1560 Geneva.  (Sorry read and read are two different words.  I haven't read the King James 1611 or 1560 Geneva cover to cover.  I'm a bit lazy and I do apologize to you oh LORD.)  Anyhow I'm just going to give you a suggestion.  Stop the ywam or whatever it is called and expensive classes that you don't need.  Read the King James and the Strong's Exhaustive Concordance and buy a ticket to Papa New Guinea and a map and a compass and head out into the jungle on your own.  (Mat 28:19) Go ye therefore, and teach all nations...  sorry I will explain the rest of this verse later.  Just know there were some changes made in 325 AD at the council of Nicaea which I resolve on another site.  I think it is  Don't even worry about languages if God wants you to reach people you will find out what real tongues are and not the garbage to impress people like church gibberish.  I am an idiot with a broken brain from insanity.  I study ancient Spanish, Greek, Hebrew, Aramaic, and Latin along with old English.  The reason, I know blame me for this too, is I don't have a Paleo Hebrew Book because I can't afford it and to be honest I just want to learn the old alphabet.  I haven't even read the Apocrypha or finished Enoch, or read Josephus or Foxes Book of Martyrs.  Why am I so lazy you might ask?  To be honest I am tired and all of my work is sitting lost in cyberspace so I'm not real motivated.  I do work on pages I know no one has ever read or will ever read unless God directs people to.  Sometimes I really lack motivation to do these works so no one can ever read them.  It is hard because I don't have DreamWeaver or expensive flash or expensive GoDaddy SSL or classy looking websites.  I know I know we all want awesome looking sites.  I would rather put my time, money, and energy into reading the Bible, and working on writings everyone hates because I "mis-quoted" the Bible and didn't give you an NLT happy verse.  I know I know I do things like the following.  (1Jn 4:8) He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.  This is why no one has made it ever far on the page.  I didn't say 1 John 4:8 God is love.  No I actually quoted the fact that you have to love, boo hoo.  If you are mad at another woman because she too wants a Bible study or she is in your way that is why I quoted that because you "loveth not."  I used to go to the Alabaster House and pass out free poems but when a legalist was mad because I whispered when I handed out original free poetry I shook the dust off my feet and never returned.  You can scroll down to the bottom of and see a pdf and 40 pages of non-sense verses.  I highlighted a bunch of verses that include Bethel and "house of God" which is also Bethel and realize our God I both love and serve is pretty mad at you.  If you want to name a church a name that is in the Bible you really should research it carefully.  God hates Kenneth Copeland, Benny Hinn, Creflo Dollar, Brock Dale Bernstein (Brock or Cain I listened to Brock's words carefully) and everyone else that preached just for money.  You know how I know this you ask?  Because God was pretty clear about that.  I study YouTubes too.  Also I read Ezekiel when it talks about the bad shepherds and did a little comparison.  And then I read the following verse where I put the italics back in since all formatting goes the way of the Do Do in Homestead.  

​(Psa 7:11) GodH430 judgethH8199 the righteous,H6662 and GodH410 is angryH2194 with the wicked everyH3605 day.H3117

​Yes that is El the Father as God 410.  

(Psa 7:11) God judgeth the righteous, and God is angry with the wicked every day.

Since italics are supplied words God 410 El the Father here is pissed off every day.  Coming from a former Marine pissed off is Marine jargon for very very angry every day.  It might sound like a curse word and it is but the point is more clearly made here.  Our Father is pretty doggon mad!  

I know I know I'm not making sense.  God is angry every day.  That is how Psalms 7:11 reads in Hebrew but you have to study the Bible deeply to actually know this.  I know I know I haven't done a comparison but I can only guess it doesn't read that way in Bill on the Hill's Bible I'm not buying his Bible either so I can find out.  I know I know look what they do for the community.  I too could do the same if I charged everyone for my classes or in my cases my writings.  I do actually preach too.  I preach on Wednesday to up to four women.  I preach a lot to a woman who is challenged and to God.  She can't understand a word of what I say but she smiles anyhow and to me that is worth more than gold.  Heck that's a good idea.  If I charge money for my websites people might think Dale's charging money for his books let's read them.  Wow it suddenly has value.  Let's buy them.  Maybe if they aren't free people will value my words and actually read them.  Then my nose will stop burning because I don't have to live in mold anymore.  One of the worst things you can ever do is give a Bible away especially to someone in a rich country.  It is insurance they will never read it because it cost you nothing.  Well it's 11:55 pm and I am still working.  It costs me something, but heck its free, so I will whine and complain because no one ever read down this far.  

First of I am probably going to hell for being a bad steward of my money. I have sowed money to bless others and almost a decade later I found out they are liars. I don't know where my tithe went but it wasn't to orphans. I prayed and trusted and I bled myself half to death to help others. I had to go to food banks because I spent my food money for others. Over the last few months God has been trying to show me the lie but in faith I thought I was doing the right thing. They have their own walk now but this to me is driving me to the brink of insanity. A homeless man I helped this winter has turned on me and even called me an “atheist priest.” The other friend who I let her stay in my house rent free for almost a year turned on me too. This is not some poor me its I am a fool God and please don’t send me to hell. Have mercy upon my soul oh God. Count me not as the bad steward as I am but forgive me for the weeds I sowed. I could have done so much more with these ministries. I harbor truth because the old Bibles I read starting with the King James. I love God but I don’t deserve his love back. I deserve hell for these sins. It is my walk and tonight it really hit me. I am in trouble. I deserve hell and I don’t have a clue what I can do to repent. I have no more sacrifice for my sins. I dishonored you oh God and I am so sorry. I repent to you oh Jesus and I beg your forgiveness for someone, myself, that should have known better. Just think about it, Bill on the Hill does not live in poverty. Kenneth Copeland might need a bigger place to live. Benny Hinn needs money like he needs a new jet or God only knows what. You too have sinned by giving all these folks money when you could have done so much more. If an 82 year old woman can go deep into Kenya and preach to people that have never seen a white man we can each do our own part. You don’t need to get permission from a church or direction from an evil pastor to serve God in your own way. You can start serving God however you can and it doesn’t have to be in Kenya but could start right here in Redding California. Do what you can wherever God puts you even if serving a life sentence in prison. God wants you to forgive the police, or the judge or the prison correctional officers and even fellow inmates. God wants your all and tithing to pay a rich man or woman to get richer is sin. You won’t be blessed in this manner. I never was. You need to give where there is a true need and if you don’t have the money give your heart out in love with kind prayer filled words or in a heart of love. Amen

This file will make more sense after you read the following article which I stayed up till 3:30 am 6/9/2019 to finish.
The above YouTube is about the earthquakes hitting California.  It is real and now it is happening.  Things will probably get worse especially if no one prays about it.  More than prayer is repentance and about my prayer I don't know what to say other than we are a wicked and backslidden nation and we absolutely deserve this.  I pray protection for where I live but I also pray protection for my fellow Marines and our military.  I know when problems like this occur I we also have to pray for protection from our own country.  This will go on another eight days especially for California.  If you read down this far which most people don't because they hate me, realize you might consider leaving the state until Sunday the 14th, 2019.  What happens after all of this I do not know I just know from Revelation 2:10 ten days of judgment are upon wicked California the state I live in and the state I love.  I believe the end is near though I was silenced in a church here when all I really wanted to say was we need to get right with God.  Years earlier I saw a dream of a massive earthquake hitting and even prophesied that too in front of a large group and alluded to the fact that this is because homosexuality and abortions.  I didn't mention abortions but that is another reason for our judgment.  My prayer is for people to repent and I also pray with Daniels prayer in Daniel 9.  My other prayer is that the righteous are spared from judgment.  This is our judgment more is coming but interestingly enough I am counted as a fool and no one ever reads down this far.  I get a little wordy but I speak as for Jesus and I have a lot to say.  Amen  PS Listening to Sundar it may not be safe for Oregon and Washington and perhaps further north.  Also if you live on the coast be prepared for Tsunamis.  Now may not be a good time to be in a boat.  Be sure to listen to the above Sundar YouTube for exact details.  If you are home pray for safety and protection for your belongings and loved ones.  I understand poverty all too well and I will have to pray as I can't just pack up and leave.